Search For Beauty

It actually works. We don't like to admit it, but it works. Hard work does actually produce results. As someone who has weighed as much as 235, someone who took anti-depressants for 18 months, and someone with very real concerns about adult onset diabetes, I can tell you that exercise is an absolutely vital part of your weekly (if not daily) routine. It has improved my physical and emotional state to a place I'm not sure I've been in 5 years.

I started lifting weights about 10 weeks ago. While the results were not immediately evident, about 4 weeks in, it started to kick in. In the past 6 weeks, I've lost 10 lbs. The low blood sugar crashes I had seen as often as every day just before lunch are actually a bit of a distant memory now.

I believe my eating and drinking habits have helped too. I have had a lot less to drink in the past several weeks compared to before. I've started to break lunch into two smaller meals at around noon and 3pm. I've been more selective of what I eat. And when the sweets are broken out, I indulge, but just enough to get some of the delicious flavor in my mouth. I don't really feel any less satisfied eating a few bites of cake instead of a huge piece. And I certainly feel better about the self control, the healthier body, and lately, several comments on my improved appearance!

After a handful of sugar fasting bets, I realized that I put a higher priority on so many things when placed up against the pleasure of eating delicious foods. That isn't to say I never eat anything I like any more, but if it comes down to being able to ride my motorcycle around without getting tired and sore and eating a few extra cookies, it's quite clear which one I'm going to pick. And I will admit that I think about how my appearances could affect how attractive girls might find me, and I would prefer to be in a happy relationship than sit around alone eating Ben & Jerry's all night.

On that line of thought, I do know that I have some level of superficiality in how I view girls. I am attracted to girls that are beautiful and healthy. I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I know we are all born different and unique, and that there's so much more to what will make a relationship successful than just physical attraction. But I've also found that it helps out in that respect, too. What girl doesn't want to be found attractive by her boy? Isn't she happier knowing that he wants and desires her? Doesn't the fading of that attraction cause conflict... when there aren't other aspects of the relationship to maintain the bond? Many things to think about... it isn't just one thing. I don't think I'm wrong to want a relationship with someone that I find beautiful, both inside and out.